Gangsta Ballerina: Vie de Voyou Pour Toujours ~Sovth Hammer ~ Primaessa Mercy Stroemann ~ Joan Tara Lea Aufsdrich ~ Ruth Emma Cleveland-Caldwell ~ Sarahby Utah ~ Angelskya Jovonovich
They tried to run me into a ditch in the road for a long time, especially in the last 7 years when my mama dies.
Who did they pick off? My 32 year old lil cousin. Today was his wake. Tomorrow he’s going to be cremated. He had a heart attack at 32. That was meant for me and not him. I’m sorry, Ella, that your son dies because of me and our entire Zerna family. He dies because of me, Kris, Leslie and Lizbeth. The world hates us something fierce.
But be rest assured, Ella, that your son dies a hero. He went somewhere on a mission to save a lot of little kids. The mission should be complete by Qadar this April 5. He’s a hero. And because I’m Emma Ruth – 32 – 67 – Cyril and I will always be connected. And I most likely die suddenly as well.
I know and I understand. Death isn’t Final.
I should be returning to where I’m from, shortly, and find out where Cyril is.
HERA CRANES TRAP Z – but i am a RuthIE. just sayin’.
how to show, but not tell.
this song…. you’re gonna turn me into mush… oh well, it was the 90s… artists like these … my gen was really into them…. and used to listen to this music all the time, but I had to stop because we needed to work as a united ‘peoples’ – the united colors of benetton… so by the 2000s i was back with pop artists and r&b, rap, and hip-hop, which is a mix of what i already listened to in the 80s…. we had to bridge ‘racial divides’ and heal from trauma bonding that harmed all of us collectively….
i am supposed to be a ‘healer’ in the healer’s guild and I do programming and ai tech work out there to assist disparate groups of peoples to get along better and learn through cognitive behavioral therapy that often times they are ‘clueless’ and cannot see the forest from the trees. There’s a lot of disinformation, misinformation, and cognitive dissonance that destabilizes paradigms, ecosystems and polite society. When you work for an agency like quantico, you are trained to be cool cucumbers out there – cool, calm, stable, and can perform flawlessly especially during crucial and critical moments and times.
I’m still an academy instructor and I’m still educating those at the academy and employing methods to enhance and improve your critical thinking skills. Sometimes i’m a sourpuss and get moody because of my own personal ‘boundaries’. But I’m content when I have control over my moods and feelings that can impede decent logical thinking and I can make better decisions and responses.
I don’t want to have to break every thing down to the lowest denominator when most of the time it’s base and is usually the reason why we are unable to participate as informed citizens of a civilized, happy, and stable-functioning world community qualified by decent folk with good hearts and healthy minds.
We can get along. We can find humane common ground. And we can and should be gentle folk. There isn’t a one-size fits all curative solution for man’s societal ills. And I don’t enjoy a cookie-cutter world where everyone is placed in a box so as to not be misunderstood. The good, the bad, and even the ugly are integral parts of humanity and the ‘homo erectus’ experience. No one has all the answers. Not every answer is actually right. And not every answer is actually good.
Every day is another chance to do a little better than the day before that. It’s two steps forward, one step backwards, a side-step, and you do the hokey-pokey and turn yourself around. And that’s what it’s all about.
I’d really appreciate it, if you don’t interfere when I’m online, by editing my posts and deleting and undoing my work because of your own mental deficiencies and uncontrollable ‘rage’, especially when you NEVER get your way. Put on your big girl pants and please learn how to deal with rejection and failure. It will teach you more than you even deserve.
Yes, in my lineage I have indigenous ‘tribes.’ You say it like an obscene epithet. When there are caveats to what many deem inferior to them in unflattering ways. One day perhaps when it’s too late, you’ll see why it’s a good thing to be infused with indigenous bloods.
And of course, this is MY website. The only pronoun I use here is “I’ “Me” “Myself” and not “THEY” or “THEM”. If you want a pluralistic entropolity {credit: Jay], then please stay on livejournal with the other MAD HATTERS.
As for alternate dimensions, I am EMMA RUTH EVERYWHERE, IN EVERY WORLD, IN EVERY REALM. I’m CHOSEN. UNBEATABLE. INVINCIBLE. IN DEUS. Isn’t that so, Lufie?
President Bush, I can never apologize enough for the venom that slithered on my forked-tongue. But I will always do considerable recompense for my misdeeds, by always keeping in mind, MAGA and MCCAIN/PALIN’s “America First.” As in Native “First Nations”, your grandparents. I was never to utter such regrettable words and not just to you, but a number of others. There’s no excuse for it. But I’m glad I’m on my own website so to not be wrongly influenced by malevolent minds.
I still am a Republican. Though, that’s Georgia Jimmy Carter Blue [NY Red].