Why

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Why did that happen to my lil cousin, Cyril? I guess he had to go somewhere in a hurry, because he’s only 32. He may be in the hospital on a ventilator HERE, but since there’s no brain activity HERE, that means he most likely is over THERE. Who can fathom the ways of the Lord. Not many I surmise.

I dunno when exactly I’m leaving, but I should be able to run into Cyril at World Trade.

I let him know about two years ago to take good care of himself. I knew he’d run into problems. But something like this no one really expected.

Not to a healthy 32 year old filipino male. Please do consider making your son an organ donor, no matter whatever other decisions you make concerning him.

~emma ruth

Ivana + World Trade

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Ivana, you’re barely 30. My lil cousin who is as young as some of my nieces and nephews. Well, I was upset with you for ditching your family and running off to NJ to live with your boyfriend who is now your fiance. My family had hoped that you would stay in NY and with Bonit and your family. Work as an RN in NYC and then purchase a home in Bayside, Queens close to Bonit for you and your mom and your brothers. We also hoped that you would encourage your brothers to finish school and get good jobs so that they too can marry like you are about to as well.

You have your reasons, Ivana. I know you miss your Father. I know you went thru some hard times because he dies in 2012. Well who is to say what would’ve happened if you did it the way Bonit and your Tito Cesar and Tita Emma had hoped. But I hope now, during another family crisis, that you’re there for your Mama and your brothers in their time of need. We know you’re planning your dream wedding this May, but do what you can for your family.

What I’ll try to do is from World Trade if I get there before this month is through. I’ll put in a request for Cyril. I sorta can see him. He’s at a terminal reading and writing. Death usually isn’t final. Natives say… “It’s like walking from this world into the next.”

~Ruti

Cyril

Yes, I spoke to my Father about Cyril. He had a heart attack this past Wednesday when my blog went live. We don’t know the cause. Why would a 32 year old filipino male in good health have a heart attack. But that’s what happened.

They say he was unconscious for about half an hour until paramedics arrived. He’s in the hospital in stable condition but no brain activity and on a partial ventilator. But his organs are all functioning and in good working order. They are going to run more tests mostly to find out if he’s clinically brain dead.

His Father’s birthday is coming up on March 20. It’s also his death anniversary. He died 13 years ago on that day… on his birthday.

My recommendation to his family, especially his Mother is to 1. consider waiting a few months or more until perhaps he returns with brain activity 2. and making sure her son is an organ donor. You may not be able to save his life, but you’ll be able to save others.

It took my mother close to 6 months to return with normal functioning brain activity, though not at optimum levels. However, my Mama wasn’t on a ventilator of any kind and she wasn’t considered clinically brain-dead with no brain activity. She could follow commands and she was sentient and awake, just not fully there until 6 months later.

This is a hard time for you, Ella and your other kiddos. *love and light* He is too young. No one expected this. But because he is only 32, miracles can still happen. So don’t lose hope just yet.

Best Wishes Always

~Ruti

Good Evening

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I just woke up a few moments ago. I don’t know why my little cousin, Cyril is in the hospital. My Dad went to visit him. I’ll find out details later. It might be serious.

I haven’t heard back from the email provider about my account, but it is a Sunday. Mebbe tomorrow.

My dreams were about family. Dana and Bonit were in my dreams.

Yes, I sorta knew I wasn’t gonna leave today when I ate Filipino Jollibee Chicken Sandwich for dinner last nite. Whenever there’s chicken I usually don’t leave the next day.

So let’s try 3/16 and/or 3/25.

~emma ruth

Stage Mom

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Well, I’m already a Princess Royal of Visayas. Hopefully I can be an older model like ‘Lauren Hutton.” Music? Mebbe I’ll do an album of ‘covers’ like that great gen z artist, Carolina Ross. Acting? mebbe cameos to start. Can’t really be on a set all day long when I got to care for my family at home. But I will do art… oil painting at the verra least. And then pen some more poetry and mebbe a few vignettes. But I’ll be encouraging my own kiddos in the arts so they can do it when they’re still kiddos. Mebbe, I’ll be really good at being a “Stage Mom.” I will put all my girls in beauty pageants, starting with “Lil Miss Sunshine” when they are like 6 years old. And dance, piano, clarinet recitals and even martial art exhibitions.

It’s really about my kiddos, furkiddos, family, and hubba. I have a lot of nieces and nephews. I won’t get directly involved, but I’ll talk to their parents about them to make sure they have all the tools they need to thrive and flourish and live out their dreams. Like Dana…. she’s doing so well. Going to be an attorney in another year and a half. Already a behavioral therapist and a mama. Her kiddos are so pretty.

I think Monique just had a kiddo too. It’s really about the next generation. I’m just a “Stage Mom” and perhaps a “Dance Mom” and a “Cheer Mom” and even a “Band Mom”

~emma ruth

Public Servants and Native American Indian

AZ – 1 26 or 12/6 – 6/21 or 6/12 …. well 6/21 belongs to a Prince and I wouldn’t touch 12/6 when i’m a 12/11 and of course 1/26 is someone in my academy, but i will snatch up 6/12/69 as a cancerian with a gemini ascendant at 11°. 6/21 also is Nicole Kidman.

I was once a kiddo myself, back in the STONE Ages. I too admired certain luminaries. I had always had hoped that if I could be an actress I could be like DAME Audrey Hepburn or The Philippines’ Audrey – Dawn Zulueta. If I were a broadcast journalist I had hoped to be like Connie Chung, and later on like Philippines’ Boy Abunda. I also admired Barbara Walters, but she was too blonde. But who I really emulated and admired are my own parentals and lolos/lolas , titas and titos, and many older cousins – Kuyas and Ates.

It’s a heartbreak for me that I wasn’t able to do what my Mama did and does so well. She graduates at age 21 as a Registered Nurse at the top of her class, a Miss Sillimania, a sorority girl, and the MUSE of the Law School. She marries at age 22 as a Virgin to her husband, MY Father, also her age and also a Virgin. Her Father, my LOLO, walked her down the aisle wearing his decorated army veteran uniform. A veteran who fought valiantly in behalf of both the PI and US during times of trouble. She works for St. Luke’s Hospital for only the top ½% of all the Philippines. A Who’s Who.

And it’s also a heartbreak that my brother wasn’t able to either and he’s a certain way. But at least for him, still a Virgin and still Mama’s angel. I had hoped my own Father would walk me down the aisle at age 22 wearing His Merchant Marine uniform.

It’s not to say in your lineage that you have just royals and nobles, but also perhaps senators, congressmen, mayors, magistrates, and even Presidents, but not just the US for someone like me, but also the Philippines. Public Servants. Royals are more like ‘stewards’ of the ‘earth’ ‘worlds’. But others are considered Public Servants.

They changed policies in recent decades to no longer choose brides or actors with PERFECT lineage and TITLES, but homegrown run-of-the-mill johnnys and jennys. But quite a few of them have ‘secret’ lineage that not too many find out about because they fail as exemplary public servants. Related to senators, mayors, and even Top-of-the-ticket. And then when they see this, we tell them, “And now we see why you too are exceptional Public Servants.

America still belongs to Native American Indians. You cannot be a leader in this country if you don’t first understand and care about FIRST NATIONS. Most natives, you don’t know what they actually look like. As you do quests which are like 1000 puzzle pieces. Many of you complete the puzzle only to see a scene of dogs playing poker. The rare exceptional ones get to see TRUE Native American Indians. You only see mostly their dogs because if you were to see what they actually look like you would want to look like them.

Same can be said about Visayans and true Malayans. Look how crazy they go for Keanu Reeves and Phoebe Cates… and they’re mixes… now imagine a world of Keanus and Phoebes. You’d lose your minds and want to be them.

Love yourselves. Love your own moms and dads and family. They should love you and didn’t they want you? Life is too short to pretend to be someone you’re not and tryna to be someone you never will be. Just do you and care about yourself because as Dame Audrey Hepburn would say, “Happy Girls are the Prettiest.” Moreover, what my Lola Sally told me when I was around 8… “Be Careful of what you wish for. You just might get it.”

~emma ruth