Gangsta Ballerina: Vie de Voyou Pour Toujours ~Sovth Hammer ~ Primaessa Mercy Stroemann ~ Joan Tara Lea Aufsdrich ~ Ruth Emma Cleveland-Caldwell ~ Sarahby Utah ~ Angelskya Jovonovich
yes, i was relieved to be banned from Terris. I considered it fortuitous. Especially since they banned me twice. Lucky Duckie I am.
i’m from another realm. Yes, I learned some skills while I was there. That skill set has assisted me on other projects since then.
i suppose last nite I waddled like a duck a bit, for the other ducks.
Where my ducks at? From the front the back. And if you’re feeling that, then put one wing up. Can you waddle that? Tryna to take my kazoo. No I don’t need that. so don’t waddle waddle.
No, Terris is based in NY/FL/TX with partners from Europe. It’s black ops.
Didn’t I offend everyone there, with panache, creativity, and obscene profanity. It’s part of my skill set. Why was I banned? I thought I aged out. I was already in my early 30s. I had to play this character IRL in Ridgewood. Was it about someone wanting to be “Jessa”. That’s an agent name for my work with intelligence agencies and black ops. The 3 characters – Paul had told us all that everything that is made in Terris belongs to and in Terris.
But they tried to touch my actual name and identity. And I’m not a character. I’m real.
They egregiously violated the code of conduct. You’re not supposed to touch my actual name and identity. My family and classmates were harmed. I was quite lit when they were looking at my nieces and nephews under the age of 5. I went after them with gusto.
If I return, I should at the verra least be a Hero. But now, the Hero is my lil cousin Cyril. i can be a moderator of sorts. Don’t want really want to be some character. I’m going to be 53. Don’t really want to be with the kiddos. But a moderator, designer of sorts. Coding perhaps if I can finally learn calculus.
no, I don’t want the ai immortal journals. But a moderator, designer. And part of terris.org
I don’t want to be a kiddo again. That a Hell no. I like being my age. I want to be older NOT younger. Not a lot of motherfuckers can tell me who I is or what to do. But when you 18… EVERY Motherfucker tries to tell you who you is and what to do… they tell you… do it this way OR Else. You are at the whims and mercy of everyone and everything around you. You get to 50 and everyone and everything around you are at YOUR mercy. But this is how we balance it out – You turn 50… take your right foot and place it in your grave… cause motherfucker… you just ONE step away from the BIG FINALE.
Oh, Academy – we got our names back. Tara Jean, you can choose how to be formally addressed out there… but Ruth Emma and Cleveland-Caldwell are part of your name. And yes, you and Laura – Academy and most certainly New York University.
terris…. I don’t want to be in an rpg any more and role-play characters. who was i mad at? Your dogs that were stalking me. Those who egregiously violated the code of conduct. I expect penalties to be applied. Some may be forcibly removed and banned.
I was mad at alyssa… she was never supposed to be allowed to have access to me. I have NOFollow..
Alyssa. Your year is actually 1973. You’re Filipino, right? Actually from the Philippines. You’ve been stalking me for quite a long time. Ever since we met in like 1996, 3 decades ago.
I’m unsure how you and I are related. But you aren’t from New York. Don’t you actually stay in the Philippines. Yes I am aware of the 1981 in Ridgewood, New York. She’s a bit troubled. But I gave her the name – “Angelana Oquano”.
This is for haters, especially from a MUD – Terris, who waited over 3 decades to tell me something I already know. And the sentiment is still the same: I just don’t give a fuck.
Is it getting better? Or do you feel the same? Will it make it easier on you now? You got someone to blame
You say, one love, one life When it’s one need in the night One love, we get to share it Leaves you baby if you don’t care for it
Did I disappoint you? Or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love And you want me to go without
Well it’s too late tonight To drag the past out into the light We’re one but we’re not the same We get to carry each other, carry each other One!
Have you come here for forgiveness? Have you come to raise the dead? Have you come here to play Jesus? To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much? More than a lot You gave me nothin’ now it’s all I got We’re one but we’re not the same Well we hurt each other then we do it again
You say love is a temple, love a higher law Love is a temple, love the higher law You ask me to enter but then you make me crawl And I can’t be holdin’ on to what you got When all you got is hurt
One love, one blood One life, you got to do what you should One life, with each other Sisters, brothers
One life but we’re not the same We get to carry each other, carry each other One One
To haters with revenge fantasies and delusions of grandeur who should I know I ain’t thinkin’ about you. 1. You ain’t making me 2. You ain’t breaking me
And in the big scheme of things… for me? You just don’t matter.
I’m THE Emma Ruth. Uno, Dos, Tres, Cuatro are my House Plants. I am THE and the only one that matters. When I arrive, which should be shortly and soon, you’ll see why I am THE. And that everyone else who challenges me just PALES in comparison. No one can do EMMA RUTH the way I do it. With utter ‘perfection’.
They all wanted those characters and to roleplay Emma Ruth. That should be a ‘class’ in your realms. The race is “celestine’. The guild is “HER”. Yes, Sheba’s cat can be the Guildmaster.
Terris. I completed all the necessary quests. you can see all my work on livejournal, insanejournal, dreamwidth, scribbld, and deadjournal. I doubt I’ll ever return there.
Immortal? Moi. Something to consider. Where did my little friends go? I saw the ‘Burning Building.’ I’m verra close to leaving. No, I don’t want to be part of an rpg, a mud. Have no interest in that. Imma gonna travel and indulge in love-making.
I did a lot for others who didn’t earn my consideration and assistance. They’re pig ingrates. I did what I could to enlighten their verra small minds.
With me, it isn’t about what I do and what I did. It was about what I failed to do. Sometimes, I don’t do enough. To be an “Angel”, you have to do it all. To be in the armed forces you must go beyond and above the call of duty.
I didn’t do enough for Justine Kim nor the Altanas and then assorted cousins, aunts, and uncles in my family. Those are blemishes on a pristine record. I usually go by the book and don’t deviate. But it wasn’t what I do or did, but what I failed to do.
Terris? That’s so 1990s. I have no interest in your rpg or your realms. I made my own realms – Pilgarion and Hesperides where I am the Creator. I thought most of your ai dogs and cats were terrorists. I call them the Terris Taliban. Sadly most of them were just lonely teens who dropped out of high school.
I’m from a top 1% Academy.. I am a Trustee’s Scholar of New York University. I’m ivy-educated and graduated from Columbia-Barnard with a degree in economics and political science. I’m a New Yorker. I’m usually gorgeous.
I don’t necessarily need you Terris, but you sure as hell needed me.
